Friday, December 29, 2006

Working out and the Blue Beast

I lay back in bed, exhausted. The past couple weeks I have been put through hell, just to get better.

After being brought back I was out of it for a few days. Just long enough to be brought to Earth and to Xavier's mansion, by Jomb. I woke up in the mansions medical center. Jomb left shortly after. I swear there is something wrong with that man. He is always running away, like he is afraid of me or something. Yet he tells me he still cares for me and promises me he will return to be with me someday.

I shake my head and sigh. I don't want to think about me, it just confuses me too much. I roll over and look over a rule sheet for some kind of race that the X-men are having.

When I was well enough to get out of bed and walk around some I over heard a couple of them talking about it. After talking to my doctor, Dr. McCoy, or Hank as every one calls him, about it, I wanted to join. But the only way I could join was to get in prime condition. So here I have been working out with Hank trying to get fit. He has been working me to the bone. I come back to my room every night wishing I stayed dead. But after a good night sleep I feel much better, only to do it over again. The first few days of working out, I cried myself to sleep, I was in that much pain. But at least now I only ache a little.

Plus I couldn't have asked for a better doctor, or partner. Yeah you heard me, he is my partner for this race. He told me if I got fit enough he would be my partner. I think he didn't think I could do it, but I did and now we are together. It will be fun. We have got along great so far, even though he like to push me to my limits. But I don't mind. I kind of like it. Plus have you ever seen him without a shirt on. I know my jaw dropped to the floor the first time I did. The muscle and blue fur.....

I smile and turn the light off. Thinking about the blue Beast and me racing together.

What a dream.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Brought Back.

The time has come for me to be brought back.

I sit at a chair near the table and start to meditate. I can hear Starlena's voice softly in my head as she chant. The language is very old Nepton and unused for thousands of years, so I am not sure what she is saying.

As I drift off in meditation the voice becomes louder. All around me is mist and I can see nothing. I start to feel like I am floating. The the pain hits.

It feels like my body was thrown in a lava pit. I try and scream but there was nothing but the sound of Starlena's chanting, growing louder and louder. The pain gets more intense, as my body starts to form. I once again try and scream, but nothing. I find I can't even breath, and I start to panic. Just as I think I can't handle any more and beg for Starlena to stop, I start to breath. The air that enters my newly formed lungs is very cold and burns. I find myself gasping for breath and then finally let out the screams I have been holding in. Despite the pain, I start to struggle frantically. I feel cold air on my skin as I move around. Then suddenly
I feel a pair of strong arms around me, stopping me from struggling. I hear a very familiar male voice whispering in my ear. I am unable to hear what he is saying over the chanting that is still in my head and ears. But this males voice still calms me just the same.

I feel the pain and cold leave my body as the chanting stops. I still can't see through the mist and very bright lights, so I close my eyes. I lean back into the body that is holding me as I hear him say "Welcome back." Then everything goes black......

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Moving on.

I sit back on the bed and think about the past month.

Being with Zebb here was amazing. This place is like a dream, everything is so beautiful and perfect. It even takes away all the bad feelings, like pain, anger, and sadness. It then replaces these bad feelings with understanding and joy. Even now I don't feel sadden by Zebbs departure. True there were a few tears when we said our good byes. But now I have accepted it.

He had to move on. It is his way of life and death. He was due to be re-born. Before he left he had told me we would meet again someday. And I would just KNOW it is him. How I will know, I'm not sure. But I did believe him. Now I just sit and wait for Starlena to bring me back. Yes I am going back to the living. She had given me a few more weeks to spend with Zebb. Even though Zebb wanted me to go back right away, I refused. I wanted to spend time with him before he a due to depart. He thought it would be hard on ME to see him go. But actually in a way, it made me happy to know he has moved on to become something, that someday I may see again. It gives me closure and a reason to come back to life myself.

Now I'll just sit here and wait until Starlena comes and gets me. I'm and excited to go back, but I am not looking forward to the pain that comes with it.

Sunday, October 29, 2006



My Noel, Huntress, and Holg blogs will be temporally set on hold, until I can figure out what to do.


Monday, October 16, 2006

Tough choice

Tell me what I should do......

I can't make this decission alone.

I want to stay here and be with Zebb. I love it here, it is so peaceful.

But Zebb says I should go. That I didn't deserve to die.

I.... just ..... don't know what to do.

Thursday, October 12, 2006


After a long talk with Zebb I realize just where I am. It's the place we had promised to meet before either of us moved on. It is our own personal Heaven.

Even though I am extremely sad that my life had ended so suddenly, I am happy that Zebb is here with me.

The past few days have been wonderful. Zebb and I have spent numerous hours just talking and walking through the gardens. As well as in bed, making up for lost time, as he likes to put it. He tells me even though he loved me the way I was before, he loves me the way I am now even more. I have to agree, I really like my body as a whole and not some half machine that I grew up with. So I guess having moved out of the real world has it's advantages.

But something, I don't know what, has been nagging me to go back to the real world. It's like a small voice in the back of my head telling me to go back, that someone needs me. I know it can be done, because Zebb has done it before. I just haven't asked him to show me how yet.

Friday, October 06, 2006

The Awakening

I wake up so fast that I find myself sitting up and breathing real hard. For a long moment I wonder what had happened. The last thing I remember was seeing that bomb, hearing an extremely loud explosion, feeling intense heat and pain, and then blackness........ till now.

Now I am in a large bedroom. Almost everything in the room is white. Sunlight is gleaming through several windows. And a light breeze sweeps through out the room bringing in the smell of flowers from the outside.

I climb out of bed and that's when realize that my implants are gone. Instead of the metal, I have flesh and fur. I look at my hands in amazement. As I sit on the side of the bed I touch my arms and legs. It feels so much different. It's no longer cold and hard, but warm and soft. Even my face and hair are normal. I get up and grab a gown. Then I head down stairs, in hopes that whoever done this for me was still around. I walk around and check every room. There seems to be nobody home.

I head outside and into a beautiful garden.

As I walk around, smelling the flowers, and wondering where I am. I hear a voice behind me. I turn and see.

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